poetry

missing you

2012-01-29T13:12:50-08:00

For a long time I didnt know what I had.

Taking you for granted

Not approving of all of your actions,

But at the time I was only a child.

And as the old folks say When I was a child

I thought as a child, I spoke as a child,

But when I became an adult I put childish things away.

So as I grew up I forgave you for those things that I couldnt understand.

Growing closer and closer to you not knowing that our time was growing short.

You showed me how a real man is supposed to stand up and take responsibilities of his actions.

And for this I love you.

You showed me what a real man is supposed to do and how he is supposed to take care of his family.

And for this I love you.

You were the first physical man that ever accepted me and loved me.

And for this I love you.

You were the first physical man that I ever loved in return.

And for this I love you.

No one could ever replace you� although some have tried.

But they just dont understand the role or the shoes that they must fill.

Its been 4 years but the pain still feels like yesterday.

I know that with God on my side the pain will seize and that one day we will be reunited.

I love you Daddy!

RIP Feb 18, 1963 - Jan 28, 2008

totally in love

2012-01-19T18:37:08-08:00

For so long I looked and searched for that special someone,

Always ending up hurt, lost and confused.

I learned to not regret anything,

So I take it all and learn from my mistakes.

Well at least I thought I was learning.

Only to find out that I was making the same mistake over and over again.

Its when I've decided to just stop looking and almost give up

That I find the one that can brighten up my day,

Can put a smile on my face when I am feeling down.

That doesnt want anything from me but to love them,

Just as much as they� love me.

That one that makes me feel like the Queen that my Heavenly Father said I am.

That one that makes all problems seem to disappear whenever I hear their voice.

Always encouraging me to be a better mom, a better woman and overall

A BETTER PERSON!

Love can be a tricky thing and can come at totally unexpected times,

But I am here to tell you when it hits you,

JUST EMBRACE IT AND LET GOD WORK!

Love

2012-01-08T16:56:16-08:00

Love is a powerful word.

Some that use the word don't truly know what it means.

I have loved and lost a time or two,

Leaving me lonely and heartbroken.

Making it hard for the next to get all of me.

I've learned to protect my heart,

So the pain I once felt, I wont ever feel again.

You say to relax, to let you steer.

Yet you find it funny when I say I can't or I don't know how.

Afraid to let that guard down,

I try to move on.

So as I jump into this new venture

Unsure of what lies ahead,

I begin to feel like a newborn

Having to learn the basics all over again.

I look to you for the comfort

as well as the scoldings.

Praying that you will be as gentle as you say

Because this heart of mine

truly feels like its made of glass.

And if handled inappropriately one more time

May shatter completely

So treed lightly and slowly

and maybe in the end you could be the permanent mender!