Jenny's life

just an update....

noreply@fubar.com (Lady Guinevere) — Sat, 08 Dec 2012 17:27:43 -0800

The job market is looking better here now that the F-35's have gotten to MCAS Yuma. I'm still jobless, but I have a better chance now, I think. I've also gotten back in touch with someone I haven't talked to in over 4 years. I'm so excited about this Christmas. I'm doing it for myself this year. It will be difficult without the kids, but I have someone now that will make it a wonderful holiday.

Discouraged

noreply@fubar.com (Lady Guinevere) — Wed, 14 Nov 2012 18:07:46 -0800

OH Daddy, I'm feeling very discouraged today.� I wish you were here to help me.� I don't know what to do and I really need to hear your voice.� It always comforted me and kept me going.� But since you've been gone, I've had to go it alone and it's so hard.� I need you, Daddy.

saw my doc today....

noreply@fubar.com (Lady Guinevere) — Fri, 09 Nov 2012 16:42:56 -0800

He says I'm looking a lot better since my surgery.� I've dropped weight to below 120 and he says I'm looking healthier.� YAY!!!

Now to get my mental state back to the way it was before then.� I'm getting there!!!

for those who have wronged me

noreply@fubar.com (Lady Guinevere) — Fri, 26 Oct 2012 19:44:38 -0700

I have been training in the art of witchcraft, along with my son.� Unless these wrongs have been undone, you will get yours before Halloween is over.� Hmmmmm toad for life?� Maybe a limp dick forever?� We shall see

Hmmmmm it seems to be on now....I have been wronged quite badly and now need to find a good hex.

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going away

noreply@fubar.com (Lady Guinevere) — Sat, 13 Oct 2012 17:33:12 -0700

When I get home from Vegas, I may disappear for a while.� I haven't been taking very good care of myself physically or emotionally.� I'm a horrible mess, no good to anyone right now.�

this great burden

noreply@fubar.com (Lady Guinevere) — Tue, 09 Oct 2012 18:02:11 -0700

I have a huge burden on my shoulders that will never go away.� I will carry it with me until the day I die.� You see, I suffer from depression with anxiety and bipolar disorder.� This is probably the reason I have been single for so long.� I have tried to keep it under control, but the past couple of weeks have been total hell for me.� My gall bladder surgery has knocked my chemicals all out of whack and I am worried the person I have my eye on is just gonna say fuck this and drop me.�� All I ask for is some understanding and support.� It means a great deal to me.

drowning

noreply@fubar.com (Lady Guinevere) — Thu, 04 Oct 2012 20:17:26 -0700

I feel like I'm drowning.� There is too much going on with my emotional state that it's overwhelming me and I'm drowning in it.� How can I keep my head above water when there is just too much going on?� In the middle of my job� and apartment crisis, I have to have emergency surgery to get my gall bladder taken out.� I have been going through all this alone.� I have been trying to stay afloat, but holding it all in has me drowning anyway.� I'm a huge mess, it's a wonder that anyone wants to talk to me, let alone get to know me better.

really stressed out

noreply@fubar.com (Lady Guinevere) — Fri, 27 Jul 2012 19:49:26 -0700

between my grandparents' issues, and my own, I'm really stressed out and having bad anxiety attacks.� It would help if I had some support and help.� Grandpa needs a lot of help and grandma thinks I don't care and that I don't understand what's going on so I get the brunt of her frustration.� How am I supposed to deal with this?� Please, someone help.

back in that dark place

noreply@fubar.com (Lady Guinevere) — Thu, 19 Jul 2012 19:04:23 -0700

I'm back in that dark place again.� Heart broken into millions of pieces.� I just want to be numb, not feel a damn thing for a while.

KARMA

noreply@fubar.com (Lady Guinevere) — Sun, 01 Jul 2012 18:52:21 -0700

In the end, when it comes down to it, karma will get those that have hurt me.