tag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-1777872008-01-19T05:57:29-08:00today.A fubar user blog.Jedaahttp://fubar.com/1056425noreply@fubar.comfubartag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-177787.6820932008-01-19T05:57:29-08:002008-01-19T05:57:29-08:00Dont get itOk another blog to vent. I am just irritated. I do everything I can to help out my friends. I am the type of person do as you want to be treated. I stand up for my friends if I think someone is treating them unfairly. Then my friends see it as eather getting involved in personal buisness or sticking where I dont belong. I guess you could say yes that is part of it. But would you not want your friends to back you if someone was treating you like crap. On the same thing why is it that people feel they need to be an ass when someone is not exaclly in the best of moods. On relationships I am tired of being single. I am helping friends plan there weddings and taking there engagment pics. I know being a photographer I have to deal with that but it wears on you reminding you that your single. Dont get it I am a great friend, romantic, loving, faithful exc and feel I deserve to find that right guy. But I eather get seen as a peice of meat or not there type do to size. Then those guys complain how they cant find a half way decent woman. well lets see they go after shallow self centered woman Just because they are as they say "hot". I am beautiful I know that. Its just frustrating people well cruel people will say lose some weight. But I see woman who are twice my size and happyly married to the man of there dreams. So Dont get it. I guess I am a little irritated because on of my guy friends who is or was my best friend recently found out from someone else that I kinda was getting attached to him. I didnt say that I loved him or anything serious. But when he found out he started ignoring me. I am guessing this person didnt tell him that I said I was not going to let myself get to attached because I dont want to cause problems with our friendship. Well when I called him and left a message asking why he was ignoring me and if he had a problem with something to talk to me about it. He called me and scremed at me saying I had no right to be upset. I didnt yell at him I just asked a few questions. Now to explain him he is a model if that says anythign and is the type of guy that thinks he has to be with a woman who is just as well phys popular. He one point told me that I may not have the looks but I have the personality that is one in a million. Now he is ignoring me and wont talk to me. I guess I should just say fuck it his loss. I am just tired of losing friends I know its my choice to cut some ties and do it for good reason but I treat my friends with the up most respect and am there for them if they need anything it seems I dont get treated the same. OK well I am done with my ranting today. Feel free the say whatever!Jedaahttp://fubar.com/1056425noreply@fubar.comtag:fubar.com,2010:BlogAtom-177787.6766652008-01-13T18:35:27-08:002008-01-13T18:35:27-08:00romanceI have been watching movies alot lately do to not really being able to do much. I still feel like crap and am high on meds that none of this will probably make since. The movies I am watching mostly have some kind of romance in them. Its becomeing frustratin because I start to doubt the idea that I will ever be inlove again and that that special someone would be inlove with me. There are so many factors it just seems impossible. You have to find someone that you connect with on every level of who youare and them to you. You have to be able to trust them with all you heart and all your life. There are just so many damn factors its enough to drive me insain. I am not even sure why I am going on and on about this. I guess just to vent and say if its worth it some kind of sign would be nice. Jedaahttp://fubar.com/1056425noreply@fubar.com