yes my therapy agin my friends!!! so have a seat and see if u follow what i am tryiing to convey and hope it helps any one else out here in wonderful fu land!!!
i have been struggeling with pain of past relationships haveing gone bad, i let the pain sink it ugly fangs so deep into my heart and soul, i use this little elitronic box to hide behind...
one minute i am reaching out to my closest friends needing them so desperately, and the next i am walking away, feeling like i am being smothered...
i have also been doing this espically with any man that seems to be around me now...
Fear of being LIED to
FEAR of being abused
FEAR of being used
FEAR of knowing in my gut when he is going around cheating on me and when i ask him about it he denies it
I have heard ppl say that FEAR holds a person back...
couldnt FEAR and "protecting ones self from being hurt again" be considered one in the same???
i find lately that i want to reach out and i keep calling for my soul mate to find me and complete me, to be a permenate part in my life, i thought i was ready for this...
but FEAR keeps makeing my ache inside so bad it cuts straight thru to my soul...
either i face it or run and hide again...
i will never truly be complete unless i face that fear and take that chance to let someone get close enough...
