TEWnSLW's blog: "Family Life"

Well, we finally made it home after our drive and time out with daddy in Iowa. It's amazing how two people can, at times, not stand each other, due to getting on each others nerves and all, can get along and miss each other so much when they are apart...lol. When he got to the hotel on Friday night after the kids and I got there, I can't tell you how amazing he looked! He was just so gorgeous! The kids ran out and climbed all over him and after they finally let him go, he came up to me, gave me a big hug and man, the damn tears just started coming! I was crying like a little baby...I truly did miss him! I put off going to the doctors to be released, hopefully for everything, on Wednesday..I was so wiped out due to about 3 damn days of a migraine! So, I didn't go...Troy wasn't too happy to hear that but I just couldn't get motivated, I was so worn out. Anyway, I think I handled the 8 1/2 hour drive pretty well...although I did hurt a bit afterwards but it was worth it! Troy and I got busy about 4 times...it hurt pretty bad when we first got started but it eventually subsided...UNTIL later, then I REALLY started to feel it....oooh, ouch! Oh well....that won't happen again until we head back out for Thanksgiving, so from now until then, I should be feeling up to it....man, this part of the recovery is what really sucks...as Rach says...BIG DONKEY DICK!!! Well, I have already checked my 500+ emails and should start receiving that on a DAILY basis again starting tomorrow due to my paid emails, so back to that daily grind! I have yet to fix Taylors mask for Halloween tomorrow, guess I better do that. I have Polly's wings attached to her gown and got her hair and crown attached....now, what did I do with that wand??? Guess I better find that and get her stuff ready to go with her to school tomorrow. I'm actually hoping that it rains tomorrow night...the kids know that they won't go if it is but I'm still hurting from the long drive back and forth and the bit of walking I did this weekend, so if it rains, you won't hear me bitch about it...that just means we'll go to Wally World and buy a shitload of candy and do it that way...lol!! Well, guess I'll get the laundry switched over and finish with the Halloween stuff. Oh yeah....Troy and I also got new phones...this time from Verizon....now we can send the phones back to my father and we won't have to have ANY dealings with my parents what so ever! Now, to just get our asses moved out to California and then I won't have to even be in the same state!! YAY!!!

Well, this day has not started out well at all. T2 went downstairs to feed the babies and he came up and told me that one of the newest babies was dead. I could not believe it...the cutest babies we have had around here and now one of them is dead. I went downstairs and laying halfway in, with his butt and back legs hanging out of the dog...well, cathouse that is, was Cuddles. The poor little baby had apparently just passed away. He tried crawling into the cathouse in order to.....apparently die.....but couldn't make it, he got as far as he could. He wasn't even stiff yet. What a total waste...he was just so darn adorable. I'm just glad that I got some pictures of the little guy. I have no idea what happened to him! The last time I saw him which was last week, he was doing just fine and now today he died. Even though he was only 3 1/2 weeks old, he had already gotten a permanent place in my heart and made himself a part of this family. While I was downstairs, I was holding the poor little angel and had to put him in a plastic bag and set him on the freezer. I can't even bury him myself...it's still just too much on me physically, so now T2 is going to have to try it. Poor Frankie...I could tell he already missed his brother and Patches, the daddy, was beside himself...he was just laying there, seriously acting like he was depressed...I felt so bad. So, I came upstairs, luckily Polly was still asleep and I started to cry. I just couldn't believe we lost another baby. Polly then woke up and after she got dressed, I told her that Cuddles ended up dying not too long ago and she had such a hurt look on her face...she's such a smart and emotional little 4 1/2 year old. Well, T2 brought up Streak...mommy and the other baby, Frankie and the minute I saw Frankie, I started crying again...just knowing that Cuddles was gone...that cute little precious baby. You will be missed little furry baby. We Love you honey!

Is really going to suck for the kids. I'm not going to have any money to buy them costumes! We have so many past due bills that need caught up due to Troy having to take so much time off of work in order to stay with the kids and me during my surgery and afterward, the bills had to wait and we've only been able to pay a little bit, barely half, just to keep stuff turned on, so now that we're having to play catch up, this means no money for Halloween costumes. I know they will be sorely disappointed because all their friend are going to be going and plus they won't be able to participate in the festivities at school. It never fails...something always has to be cancelled, people end up being upset and I'm always made to look and feel like the bad guy. I'm so close to just throwing up my arms and saying fuck it!

Well, I knew I missed my hubby, he's only been in Iowa for a little over a week and a half but I went through looking at my pics here on LC and saw the one with him and our daughter and I started to cry. I guess I didn't realize how much I missed him and how much I missed looking at his gorgeous face. Wow....it's kind of amazing...after over 12 years of being together, I still miss him and cry when he leaves for road jobs even though this is the 3rd time he's done this. Do you think I can tell him this? Hell no...I don't feel like him razzing me about it, so I'll just say that here since nobody on here knows my husband...except for my cousin Jen, well, she doesn't know him but I'm sure they will meet one of these days and I have a warning for her...don't you dare remember reading this young lady or I'll just have to ..... um, I have no idea what I'd do or say but I'd have to make her life hell or bug the daylights out of her or even worse....send my kids to her for a month or so...that will punish her enough...lol...you know I love ya Jen!

Well, recovery is just about done...I still can't do too much at one time without getting too worn out and/or hurting, so that part is still going slow but for it only being a little over a month and having such an invasive surgery done, I'm doing pretty darn well with my recovery. Troy is now is Iowa for work which will probably go on until mid November or so, not too sure about that but after my doctors appointment on the 25th, the kids and I will head out there to visit him for the weekend and I think maybe 3 weeks later at the most, he'll end up going somewhere else, probably Indiana. Needless to say, the place is a total disaster area. I try to clean, but I can only do so much before the pain starts in so of course, what little I got cleaned, get messed up again within the next few minutes. Do the kids help out? Hell no...why would they? They only help out when it's time to mess things up, NEVER to clean...little brats...can't trade them in for a newer model, so I guess I'll just have to deal with it...lol. So, the kids are out of school tomorrow...poop! Hopefully it will be decent outside so they can go out and I won't have to deal with the noise and the fighting, which is EXACTLY what they are doing right now....oh, boy...can't wait for the crying to start because someone got a little too carried away. *sigh* this is what I deal with when they are home....every single day. *even bigger sigh*...the oldest is crying...wonderful, now he's going to start beating up his brother, then it means more crying and whining. IS IT BEDTIME YET?!?!?!?!?