matt plus size suprise's blog: "encrypted"

its been a long time since ive had something to say, and so friggin much has happened in the past year; the wife and i have reconciled, its cost me alot of blood tears and sweat, and a couple friends to get our marrige back on track but im definately glad we put the effort in things are gettin better for us all the time and our improved life is having a very positive effect on the children, they have always been great kids but now they seem alot happier, i am truly blessed, and immensly thankful for the ease of stress, and the abatement of saddness in our house. as my wife and i rebuild our marrige and restructure our lives i just wanted to take a minute and say "THANK YOU" to all the friends ive found online who made the lonliness bearable, and "THANK YOU VERY MUCH" for posting nude and nearly nude pics of yourselves for me and your other friends to oogle over.. so many gorgeous women, you all make me feel very manly that i can show you all off to my friends, your all soooo sexy, any time you want some matty love holla at me and i will be more than happy to obligize I LOVE MY FUBAR LADIES, my sexy, sexy fubar HOTTIES

curled up in a ball on the couch, trying to be as small as i feel for the life of me i cant cry, and the death of me seems so un real escape myself in a bottle, or a pill, or ten, all that gets me is hurting my friends like a broken piano i am out of tune, i sit unused till my time ends i'd bleed myself out but i am too scared its my friends that help me even if i am too impaired for how much longer will i have to be this sad i would like to know cause things are getting pretty bad i will just have to hang on as long as i can its not so bad with all these friends there is some one out there that deserves my love until i find her i just need more drugs this heart that bleeds into itself just needs to be put on a shelf try though i may its ok if this is my last day