THIS IS WHAT I WROTE AFTER ME AND MY EX-FIANCE BROKE UP.........................................
Empty promises. Empty words with no meaning.You said you loved me and that you wanted to be with me forever.. YOU LIED! You PROMISED me that i would never have to feel any pain ever again.You said we were going to be so happy together....Then all of a sudden it was like a bad dream when you said that it was over that all I was was one big mistake it was like my walls came crashing down around me! It was like the pain of a thousand daggers through my heart..You had saved me from drowning then you threw me back in..that was the worst pain I had ever felt in my life I didn't know it was possible to hurt so bad nothing was going to stop me from ending my life...You made me the happiest I have ever been all I could think about was you day and night you were in my thoughts all day and in my dreams at night.I did and still do love you more than anything in the world. It's so confusing how I can go from being the most important person in your life to not even mattering at all..I tried to be strong all day but it didn't work everything made me think of you no matter how hard I tried to tell myself i don't need you and I am better off, but it didn't work. Now as Isit here writing this the tears flow from my eyes uncontrolably. All I wanted was for us to have a family and be happy together and you said that's what you wanted too..But it was all lies...I tried to fight with you when you told me it was over I wasn't letting you go that easily I loved you too much for that. But after you said "you are perfect but just not perfect enough for me" that was the last piece of my heart that was holding me together you ripped it out..After that I knew I had to let go wether you loved me or not I hurt too bad to keep trying.I wasn't going to listen to everyone saying it wouldnt work, I mean after allwhat did they know they didn't knowus and we had our love to hold us together. You said "maybe we don't know what we are doing but I love you so we will make it work" you said you were mine forever...I loved you likei have never loved anyone before..I gave you all of my love all my heart and all ig ot in return was daggers through my heart.As bad as I want to hate you right now I can't do it even as bad as i'm hurting I can't hate you I love you too much even as Isit here crying, hurting..The pain so deep....Everything makes me think of you and your empty promises, how you told me you loved me and how I longed to be able to wake up next to you every morning I would have done anything for you in the world anything to be with you all the pain I had gone through was worth it because I got to be with you but now the pain is so unberable no amount of love from anyone will ever make up for it..You saved me when I was drowning only as you grabbed my hand to pull me out of the water you let go and watched me drown..Every Thought of you is like another dagger through my heart! You said I was perfect...What did I ever do to deserve all of this pain? I just want it all to end! I want you out of my head!!! I don't want to think of how happy i was or your empty promises....You think it's easy being me....I just wish you could take a walk in my shoes,feel the pain i feel..I am slowly falling apart.
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