i used to think i was all alone in this world never thought there was other people out there like me. i have had some pretty shitty things happen to me in life that a shrink says caused all this depression on me.
when i was just 8 i was molested for three yrs by someone i looked up to i had to live in the same house with her and try to keep my mouth sealed shut never letting anyone know after all it was my burden to carry right? im 30 yrs old now and i still cant stand to be in the same room with her i have tried forgiving her and i know now that she was/is sick and could not help it. a part of me forgives but i will never forget.
when i was 14 i met my soul mate. he raped me on oct 11 1991 and i conceived larissa out of this again i hated him but i loved him. i forgave him and let him back into our lives i thought he changed and when i had my son (not by him) he called him daddy. i then got pregnant with lacey (yes his) he stayed around for 5 more yrs and left saying he needed a change leaving me with three kids to raise on my own. i forgave him once can i do it again? yes i have to for our kids sake.
I am now married to a good man that hates to even see me cry i think i am finally happy and with his help i am trying to let go of all the bad that has happened in my life hopefully hearing this part of my life you too can find happiness the depression is always there lurking in the corners but with my three kids and my husband i overcome it every day its kinda like aa everyday i dont burn myself or think about taking the easy way out is another day i survive
hugs and nips
Larina