I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek.
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again,
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control.
But not today
not now.
Now you look so scared
like for once you dont have the answer.
I look at you
looking deep into those beautiful eyes.
Hoping to understand
why you've said the those things you did.
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek
Ask me what's wrong
and then walk away
push me aside
before I can stay
Act like I have someone
tell me that you care
the more days pass I realize
no one's really there
Be the way the world will treat me
make me realize love is really a lie
show the emptiness I'll have forever
make me want to give in and die