i am at a crossroads in my life right now. confused, mad, sad, angry, just not at one thing, but several different ones. I consider myself to be a good person. I do what i can for people and try my best at all that i do, but i see things as wrong and right in life and there is no in betweens. I am a very honest person and always have been told that this is the best policy. I am beginning to wonder if it is, as it gets me nothing more then confused. You know i think i have lots of great qualitys for someone, but when i just try to be honest with people, then they dont seem to like that. thats ok i guess as that is them. The things that confuses me in this life is people always say how they want better and want to better therselves and when i have lended a hand to someone and really push for them to make there situation better then what they have, as i feel they deserve better, then i tend to get pushed away and to the side. I know things cant always go my way and i accept that, but what makes people not wanting the truth known ??? Is it fear ??? emotions ??? Love ??? Hate ??? Someone please just tell me what it is as i have no idea anymore. Hell, I even just get so confused myself sometimes and not feeling sorry for myself, but know i dont deserve what i get sometimes. Am I perfect ??? Oh hell no. Do i want the best ??? oh yes as i feel everyone deserves that. I would like someones input on this. thanks
