It's been just a bit over a year since I last blogged, at least anything of substance. I've just spent some time reading back through some of my blogs, amazed at where I have been, an awareness inside of the movement forward along my Path. So much chaos.....so much pain! Not so much chaos now but the pain continues, ebbing and flowing as pain and sadness do.

 

I am down to one teenager at home. Dakota is almost 16 now. The oldest grandson Damian is 23 and on his own.....doing well. Middle grandson Tim is on his own, as well.....still a work in progress. Tim usually calls me when he is in need of free medical care, lol. Dakota......well, he's a teenager, what can I say. I am thankful he is the last......I'm ready to hang up my child-rearing spurs, thank you!!

 

My Oriental Medicine practice continues to thrive and grow. I am thankful I am able to support myself and Dakota. I'm using my essential oils in my practice now. And crystals are "talking" to me these days, lol.....yeah, I've signed up for a class on crystal healing.

 

I have a Spiritual Guide.......well, he's been my offical Guide for a year now, unofficial Guide for 2 years. This is a person in the flesh, not "out there", lol. I am learning much. One thing I've learned, and maybe passing this on is the reason for this blog.....Guides/Teachers are human, with their own issues and messy lives to deal with. Just because they have come into your life to assist you, spiritually, doesn' make them less human. They are still on their own Journey of discovery. Interestingly enough, my Guide blogged on this very thing not long ago. *smile* I had surmised early on that he was quite human and had his own issues. I do not always agree with some of his ideas and viewpoints but I meditate on them and try to see things from his point of view. Some things I believe quite strongly, deeply......and we agree to disagree. Beliefs can change as one progresses forward along the Path....I know mine have changed over time and with experience. I continue to explore, to search.......

 

I still pick up sadness and grief easily.....the trick is to figure out if it is mine, from one I am "connected" to, or from the whole bloomin' world! Sometimes I feel like a "pain bearer".....one who shares the pain and sorrow of others. And I get tired......

 

Enough for today! We will see if this is the start of a more regular progression of blogging....or not, lol. I am filled with gratitude for all the blessings that come to me.....this includes my Fu family and friends

 

Much love, warm hugs, many blessings, dear family/friends/fans!

I did not wish to pull away from Fubar without forewarning my dear Fubar friends and family. I am not totally leaving.......my profile will remain, but I won't be here as often as I have been, although my presence here has slowly been diminishing over the last few months.

 

I am going through some massive changes in my life......my spiritual Path has become more defined. I am still attempting to simplify my lfe. Some of this is a deeply painful process for me, but the end result will be worth the effort.

 

My time here will vary from week to week......I will be back a couple times a week to check my Private Messages and such.

 

I am open to the possibilities!

 

Much love, warm hugs, and blessings for all of you. Wish me well......

 

Maggie

My #1 friend and family member, Fatah aka Phillip, has started blogging again. If you are exploring and expanding your spiritual horizons, you may wish to read his words. He always inspires me. But, then, he is my Teacher/Guide, lol! Phillip's blogs always make me think.....hopefully, they may do the same for you, as well. Much love, warm hugs, and blessings, one and all! Maggie

Returned this afternoon from Appleton.....the presentation on acupuncture went well. I talked to the Wisconsin Academy of Physician Assistants. The talk was well received, so I guess I am pleased....I was incredibly nervous! They had set aside a room for me....what's called a "junior suite".....oh, wow! If I had just been left alone long enough to enjoy it, lol!! Mercury may have turned Direct yesterday, but I certainly don't feel it yet. This has been a tough one, in so many ways.....and I am tired. True, we are in the Retrograde's shadow until Halloween....still a way off. Sweet Mother Goddess, give me strength..... I am sitting here listening to a crying, screaming fight between Tim, my 17 year old grandson, and his gf Brittany......I am tired of the drama. He turns 18 in December.....I think it's time for him to find a place of his own! I feel as if I am standing on the edge of a cliff.....there is something coming....and I need to let it manifest. No surprise, there is much pain involved....the story of my life, I think. Or the story of everyone's life....First Noble Truth a la Buddha, "Life is suffering"! He wasn't kidding...... I need peace and quiet to work all this out....not much to be had in my house, lol! I truly believe it is time for a retreat....or at least a three day sequester at the local Wellness Center. We will see how this all works itself out! Enough babbling..... Much love, warm hugs, and blessings for all my friends/family/fans. Some of you hold me up when I don't think I can hold myself up anymore. Thank you....you are loved more than you will ever know! Later! Muah!

I always hate when friends/family leave Fubar without saying farewell.....I know sometimes that is easiest and best. While scanning my family list....someone was missing! The young man who first led me to LostCherry, a dear past life companion of special connection, the one who introduced me to Black Metal, has left Fubar. So many changes in the air right now....I could have done without this one, but I will deal. He and his music projects are on MySpace.....I know my guitar playing, 17 year old son Taylor keeps in touch with him there. I am pleased they have struck up a bit of friendship over music. I'm sure this will mean little except for the handful that know him....that know me. I just needed to put this to "paper"....eh, computer screen! Be well, dear Warrior friend... Blessings, One and All. Addendum: Lovely, just noticed a second past life companion has deleted his account. Be well, my sweet addiction.... Good night!

My Daily Greeting has become a Weekly Update, lol... My ex had his open heart surgery this past Wednesday and is doing well. The docs repaired his aortic valve and replaced his mitral valve with a mechanical one. Damian, my oldest grandson, took Taylor, my youngest son, and Dakota, 14 year old grandson who lives with me, to visit Bill in Rochester today. All went well.... This has been a very busy week, work-wise! Next week will be the same by the looks of it. I will finish up the notes for the talk I'm giving for the Wisconsin Association of Physician Assistants, October 16 in Appleton. NOW they tell me they are expecting 175 to 200 PAs to attend my talk.....OMFG! This will be the first time I've ever spoken before this big a group! Sweet Goddess, give me strength, lol!! Tomorrow I will do another round of sorting and throwing or giving away.....still have too much "stuff" from the move in June. Time to purge some more!! I will simplify my life, or else.....or else what, I'm not sure, lol. May everyone have a wonderful weekend! Much love and warm hugs for all my friends/family/fans. Blessings....lots and lots of blessings...for one and all! Later! Muah!

Enough with the drama! At my ex's request, I AM NOT going to be sitting at the hospital during his surgery. It'll just be too stressful for him, not knowing what his Mom might do or say. Fine! I've told my Mom and daughter to back off.....I'm doing what he wants me to do. As it is, the Docs changed his surgery date to September 24, from September 23. I will send prayers and positive energy! It has been a busy week, work wise.....new clients calling daily! A good thing, but I need to schedule people a week or more out. And attempt to maintain some balance (and my boundaries, lol!). The guys are all doing well in school. So far Dakota, the 14 year old, is giving me the most problems.....he has his first real girlfriend. Although he sees her at school, they seem to need constant telephone contact after school! Hello?!?! I need to use the phone.....NOW!!! Things are becoming more interesting all the time in my life, more to the point, in my spiritual life. Lots of work being done.......but I have someone to guide me. I am off to work! Have a glorious Saturday, dear friends! Much love, warm hugs, and blessings, one and all! Later! Muah!

It has been months since I've done a real Daily Greeting, so I think it is time to try this again! I have become a very busy woman....my business continues to grow by leaps and bounds. I am really working at not getting in over my head - I am known for taking on too much! I know how much sleep I need; I know my limits, physically, as to how many clients I can treat in a day and not totally do myself in! Trying to maintain those boundaries takes bit of work...... I continue to purge my home of belongings that no longer fit my life! Geez, I have alot of crap, lmao! It is a work in progress, as are most things in my life. The next Mercury Retrograde is almost upon us.....I've felt its influence since about September 1. More issues being dredged up whether I like it or not. So many of my friends and clients are feeling the same crunch....nice to know it's not just me! The husband from whom I am separated is having open heart surgery September 23 in Rochester, MN. His Mom and sister are traveling to be there. I had planned on going......then Bill said I didn't need to, especially knowing that the teens would be without supervision for a day, lmao!! So, I started scheduling clients for the 23rd.....the bills still have to be paid! Between MY Mom and my oldest daughter, I guess I need to change the order of things again and plan on being in Rochester for the surgery! Separation is such strange territory.......divorce is a bit more clear cut..... I could make this a long one, lol, but I think I won't! No, don't thank me, lmao!! I need to get ready for belly dancing class....tonight begins my third year of belly dancing! Much love and warm hugs for all my friends/family/fans! Blessings, lots of them, for one and all!! Later! Muahzz!

Just an update for those who know me.... I had to make an emergency run to Rochester MN yesterday.....my ex needed to be transported to one of the Mayo Clinic's hospitals for admission. He had an Echocardiogram yesterday morning and the Docs didn't like what they found. They also think he has bacterial endocarditis....a bacterial infection in the heart tissue. And his blood pressure is off the charts....that is nothing new! So, Bill (my ex) is looking at lots of nasty tests today, lots of meds for the infection and BP,....and ultimately surgery for the two heart valves that are damaged. He is not a happy camper! I have a full compliment of clients to treat today, tired as I am. Hopefully I won't have to make another flying trip to Rochester today.....I will plan to be there for the surgery, given some warning. Life is an interesting thing.... Much love, warm hugs, and blessings for one and all! Later! Muah!

FYI, for those that might want to know, I am without my laptop. This comes to you from the teens computer - I usually have to engage in a fight to the death to use this thing, lol. Not to mention the keyboard sticks like nobodies business.... Heather, my Web/Computer Diva, says my laptop either needs a new fan, needs a new battery, or, worst case scenario, I need a new motherboard. That translates to needing a new laptop, I guess! Wish me luck! I will only be online minimally, checking messages and emails. I'm having Fubar withdrawal, lol, amongst other things! Much love, warm hugs, and blessings for all my family/friends/fans! I miss you all terribly, lol. Later! Muahzzz!