I cant understand these feelings of hopelessness. i cant understand why i reach out and get no ones hand. It seem likethe only place i belong is the vast world of insobrity. It seems as tho im lossing touch with my self and friends. No one calls and no one writes. My biggest fear is that of never being truely loved. It seems as tho my fear is becoming reality. I need to take control and cut away these string holding me back. Like a puppet whos every move is dictaed by some one elts. Im sapposed to take it one day at a time. Live life on lifes terms. Thats easyer said than done. If thoes who read this could give me some sagestions on how to mabey make things evan a little bit easyer. PLEASE do.