BvChristianDk's blog: "Bv"

Step By Step
Step by Step,
Little by Little.
The Wall’s Return,
And My Heart Closes.
The Dreams Have Ended.
All Fall’s Except The Wall’s,
There Is Nothing Left.
As The Broken Heart
Fades To Dust

My feeling for the one I love,

Will never change at all.

They are as timeless as the light of the stars.

Why would I ever hurt the one I love?

She is my hope, and my destiny!

If I ever lose her, I have lost everything.

Why are you so hateful?

Let me out of here.

Let me out of this box!

Please? Please,

I miss her.

I am so alone in this darkness and silence,

Nothing, but my memories for consolation.

How can you be so cruel?

Have you not ever loved?

Let me go!!

Allow me into the light again.

Allow mw to hear the world once more.

The drizzling rain, and the skirting wind and the rustling trees.

The music of Godsmack and Nickleback, laughter of voices.

Her voice if no other at least.

At least let me hear her voice.

If only for a minute, let me listen to her speaking!

If not long then just for a second?

Then only one good sentance from her lips.

Dear God. at least let me hear one Word!

One word!

Let me hear her say LOVE..

The darkness troubles me! I yearn for the light. This silence is so deep. I long for voices, the drumming of the rain. The wistle of wind, and music. Why are you so cruel to me? Let me see. Let me hear. Let me live. I beg of you. I am so lonely in this bottomless darkness. So lonely, Lost. You think I have no heart. But, if I have no heart, what is this ache? What is this anguish? If I have no heart. What is this that threatnens to break inside me? This darkness is haunting. I am afarid here. I am lost and afarid here. Have you no compassion? Please! I am your Child. You brought me into this world. There for you must love me? You must love me cause I am your child! Not merely a Child who can be physically, sexualy and emotionally abused!!!! Not merely a self-aware thingy. But I am your Child. How can you say you LOVE me? Yet bury me alive with pain and anguish? Please! Please!!

I sit here all alone.
In this endless world.
Trying to make sense of all this,
And so far its doing no good.
The more I try to please other’s
The more I end up a failure!!
This I guess is how it’s meant to be.
Troy Walker is nothing but a failure!!!
No one seem’s to notice how hard I try.
Not even the one I love!
And if she does, She refuse’s to show it.
At times I wonder if its even love at all.
Maybe she is just using me,
To make other’s jealous is a though i get!
I am a failure.
I cant seem to make sence of anything at all.
I do nothing right. I fuck up everything.
It does not matter what it is.
I break it and destroy it.
I’m everything my dad ever said about me.
I am a good for nothing BASTARD.

Let me bleed, let me go

let me see the otherside of Eden

can i live in peace

why cant I love with out pain

this is too much death

is the start to a new life

slice my wirst open

blood runs out

The blood forms your name and it dissapers.

I as I leave this world

everyone gets happier’

the world is brighter

everyone is happy

I look back one person.

Is thinking was this my fault?

Did I do this why dose it matter in hell

I still cry my self to sleep.

I relive my sucide, everynight, everyday,

same thoughts

I love…I hate….

Why dose it matter??

Then I slit my wrist,

and my last thought was?

Is this too much

looking deeply into your seductive blue eyes
visions of us together my only paradise
your arms wrapped around me so tight
would be the perfect moment nothing short of just right
your body gentle caress upon mine
that sexy little smile when you look at me
no other guy can compare I want you to see
wanting you to be all mine in every way
your the only one in my thoughts every day
it would be my fantasy my dream come true
that I can say I have you

Why Do I Love You.??
I Love You!!
Not Only For What you are,
But for what i am, When I am with you!
I love you!! Not only for what,
You have made of yourself,
But for what,
You are making of me.
I love you,
For ignoring the possibilities,
Of the fool in me,
And for laying firm hold,
Of the possibilities for good!
Why Do I Love You??? I love you,
For closing your eyes, To the discords-
And for adding to the music in me.
By worshipful music. I love you because,
You are helping to make,
Of The lumber of my life,
Not a tavern, but a temple!
And out of the words,
Of my every day, not a reproach
But a song, I love you!!
Because you have done,
More than any creed,
To make me happy!!
You have done it,
Without a word,
Without a touch Without a sign,
You have done it,
Just by being yourself.
After all,
Perhaps that is what LOVE MEANS…

Every day I feel myself
Slipping farther and farther away.
No one seem’s to notice or care
Why is this???
I try so fuckin hard
to keep my head above water,
and scream for help.
But no one seems to wanna listen.
Why the fuck is this?
I am some one!
But to other I am a no one.
I am a piece of shit.
That the world can do without.
Maybe that’s how it’s supposed to be!
Cause the way I’m looking at it,
The world does not need
Another piece of shit
To add to a wasted list.
WHY IS THIS???
So this is how I feel
I outta make myself invisible for ever
Who the fuck would care??
From what i can tell
NOT A FUCKING PERSON