scorpionfish's blog: "Bloodletting!"

I am posting this to be responded to... Guess that makes me a player...or am I? Is there a middle ground? Dating seems much more noble, doesn't it...at least the way the paragraph is worded. Player seems really low, yes? Dating is the activity of looking for a suitable partner for a relationship. The word refers to two daters agreeing on a time and date when they can meet and engage in some activity, thereby assessing their suitability for one another. Typically a person may date many different partners during the same time period in order to have the best chance of finding their most suitable available mate. A womanizer, player, or philanderer is a man who engages in love affairs with women he cannot or will not marry. The love affairs are typically sexually motivated, with little emotional attachment. The most famous of these is typically Giacomo Casanova, though his motivations and level of commitment are debatable. There is no corresponding term of "manizer" in the language as yet, although the type can be found to exist; some use the term, "maneater", as in the 1982 Hall & Oates hit song "Maneater". A famous literary example might be Lady Brett Ashley in Ernest Hemingway's novel The Sun Also Rises, a woman of a certain age who chases a nineteen-year-old matador. Blanche DuBois, the third member of a sexual triangle in A Streetcar Named Desire by the playwright Tennessee Williams, is another example. Ariel Levy reports in Female Chauvinist Pigs that women are also now being referred to as players if they treat sex in a similar manner to male players. [edit]Fictional womanizers/players Odd Della Robbia (Code Lyoko) Brad Burns (Virtua Fighter) Boomhauer (King of the Hill) Hawkeye Pierce (M*A*S*H) Captain Kloss Bruce Wayne James Bond Chef (South Park) Glenn Quagmire (Family Guy) Denny Crane (Boston Legal) Alan Shore (Boston Legal) George Oscar "G.O.B." Bluth (Arrested Development) ...by the way, both definitions are gleaned from wikipedia. Does Bruce Wayne really count since it was a cover, and Batman was his real identity? A humorous note...Hawkeye and James Bond are two of my favorite characters! LOL

The Warmth and the Chill I came here to feel the sun go down to think of what I've lost and what I have yet to gain My loves my hurts Watching the warmth disappear behind my heart so, I can feel it again when I wake t redfearn 12/6/06 Chimera i've got dragons to slay and demons to fight i'm not about to hide from my own heart and all the ugliness that resides there if I don't face that horror, that pain how can i ever cherish amy own happiness t redfearn 12/6/06

THE MAD ATOMS I. My loneliness drives me to run run run to another's lonliness I will seek the one who will hurt me as before I seek seek But can never wait for the void to find me For the solitude the solice I crave I fear Fear forces me to run from my bliss I ache I seek too much I run too much into the arms of other's fears then, they are mine I forget my own I lose myself But not the way I need to the way I truly hunger for I run run run to the people like you. II. Like a mad atom a chain reaction a white light Blinding us to the beatings we inflicted We destroy ourselves in that We Before we are ready for it Part of the masses the dross the mob the worst common denominators Now... I run from people like you To the solitude To my arms Silence Solice Confidence The I of my eyes Silence silence... and the rest is silence... * t redfearn 1/2/02 & 10/18/06 *from Hamlet by W. Shakespeare

MOVED TO TEARS To let go All that i allowed to hurt my spirit Hurtful to have only hatered Holding me together As i enter into the void the ultimate surprize party with a trickster around every corner Hatred and fear only serve to shackle and crush Not to me! No more in this life! To hate and blame only dishonors the life i've been given i surrender Mother here's my sword... --1/3/05 scorpionfish 3:40 am

The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. --Friedrich Nietzsche can't get enough of that man!!

The longest survey you'll ever fill out! Do the world a favor: fill it out and post it for all your friends.... Do this because the person who sent it to you didn't sit here for ages for nothing. Answer all the questions honestly, no lying to avoid stuff. Starting Time: 3am Name: Tom aka scorpionfish Sisters: 1 Brothers: 1 Eye Color: blue Shoe size: 11 Height: 6' What are you wearing right now? boxers w/little scorpions on them Favorite Drink: vodka tonic Favorite Month: November Favorite Breakfast: Eggs OM, sausage, hashbrowns (well done), english muffin, and lots of black coffee ***********Have You Ever***************** Bungee jumped: Nah Made yourself throw-up? I just got back!! Gone skinny dipping? Yup Loved someone so much it made you cry? oh yeah... Broken a bone: No Been in a police car: yes, but to go to a line up and identify my attacker Been on a plane:yup Came close to dying: nope Been in a sauna: sure Been in a hot tub: Yep Swam in the ocean: Ya Fallen asleep in school: in college, when I actually tired myself out studying Broken someone's heart: twice Cried when someone died: Yes Fell off your chair: not in years Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call you: nope Been cheated on: grrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! only once...thankfully Your room like: hahahahhaha! Whats right beside you: my tv...watching casino royale What is the last thing you ate: chef boyarde beef ravioli --------------------------Ever Had- ------------------------------- Chicken pox: 8yrs old Sore throat: have one now Stitches: my chin, my pinky, my ring finger, and the inside of my nose Broken nose: nope -------------------------Do You------------------------------------ Believe in love at first sight: Yes Like school: not anymore Like crazy hardcore sex: what's your number? ------------------------Questions---------------------------------------- Who was the last person you called: my roommate Who was the last person you danced with: me Who makes you smile: women --------------------------Who--------------------------------------------- Did you last yell at: my roommate. Do you like filling these out: I dig it. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses: neither, but I'm getting older as I fill this out Do you like yourself: More and more. ---------------------Final Questions--------------------------- What are you listening to right now: James Bond Theme...movies over What did you do today? worked an 8 hour shift at work, realizing 1/2 an hour after the new shift started I had no back up...real professional. eh? What car do you wish to have: Shelby Cobra GT500 Where do you want to get married? never again Good singer: eh! good guitar player tho' Diamond or pearl: Pearl Are you the oldest child: yes Indoors or outdoors: outdoors ----------------------------Today did you------------------------------ 1. Talk to someone you like: Like like? No.... 2. Buy something: nope...broke 3. Get sick: am sick 4. Sing: nope 5. Talk to an ex: yep 6. Miss someone: ooh yeah ----------------------------Last person who--------------------------- 7. Was in your bed: Me 8. Saw you cry? no one 9. Made you cry? me 10. Went to the movies with: me 11. You went to the mall with: eww!! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- 16. Ever been in a fight with your pet? nope 18. Been to Mexico: nope 19. Been to Canada: nope 20. Been to Africa: {clickclick!!ditdit}.... ---------------------------Random----------------------- 21. Do you have a crush on someone: several... 22. What books are you reading right now: soul mates by thomas moore 23. Best feeling in the world: Fulfillment 24. Future kids names: ..... 25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: nope...blow up doll maybe 26. What's under your bed: guitars 27. Favorite sport to watch: porno 28. Favorite location? a woman's bed, at my easel, or dancing 29. Piercing/Tattoos: none 31. What are you most afraid of right now: no sex 32. Who do you really hate? republicans 33. Do you have a job: yes 35. Ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with? I always do 37. Are you lonely right now: yep 38. Have you ever played strip poker? No Time Finished: 3:30am With however long it took you to complete this, post as "__ minute survey

Roger Thomas Hearld. A truly gifted and unique film maker...killed in a car crash on the 710 freeway at 26 years old. Being an atypical guy, most of my best friends are women--most men only want to know what you've been doing, not feeling...Roger was an exception. He was/still is a brother and true friend to me. He took photos that would land me my first art show, shared his knowledge of film and passed on his love of the medium to me, he actually set boundaries for our friendship (most people don't do that), and he taught me that to be truly creative, you need to take chances...otherwise it's just static and noise.

Someone please entertain me, cheer me up? Dirty limirick or something? Please? :(((

"Everythings outta wack...people just worry about money now, and deny their inner selves!....Money, money, they walk through the night crowd. Protected by money, lulled by money, dulled by money...Money, money, money everywhere and still not enough! Then no money, or little money, or les money...or more money! But always money! And if you have money, and you don't have money, it's the money that counts, and money makes money. But what makes money make money???" ---quote from the film 'Henry and June'

The Last Love at First Sight What happened to the sunsets the secrets in the afternnoon walks on the beach and guitar serenades at midnight my childhood and my innocence is gone they were right when they told me "this time.." "this one will hurt" the Sacredness of Love is gone from me the very last love at first sight. c. t redfearn long beach, ca. 3/18/07