| subject: | let the breathing begin....again |
| post date: | 2008-04-23 09:40:35 |
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when your going through something traumatic or dramatic
you tend to push the ones you love
away
this day is no different
when your heart dictates to your mind
your kinda forced to listen
you close your eyes and hope to god or allah or buddah or whoever, that this time, it wont hurt
for me, its near impossible to not fall
it so easy to take my heart
make it your own
then somewhere somehow someway
its hurting
maybe even breaking
maybe intentionally
but most likely not
so what to do
when you're the one
who called the shot that pierced straight through
it does not make it any easier
possibly even more painful
for the days it was thought this is it
its so right
it feels so damn good
its perfection....
the rational mind...in the back of your head
whispering...nope you fool its not, your gonna cry
just wait, you'll see, its gonna hurt ....again
and for fear of offending our schitzophrenic friends...your heart and rational mind are fucking arguing!
i kept saying i was conflicted
only way i could explain it....
but that little twinge of ouch came, and then the words flowed to close the tiny hole to my heart before it became a huge gaping monstrocity
and so the healing ... begins
i will miss my soul, because it was bound and joined another's, but i haven't gotten it back...altough i was "released"...i know i am not
let the breathing...begin...again |
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