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What is your name? meaghan
Are you named after anyone? no
What's your screen name? hmmm
Would you name a child after you? hell no
If you were born the opposite sex what would your name be? Probably Robert
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be? Jewel
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly? Oh yea
Would you drop your last name if you became famous? probably

Basics

Your gender: same
Straight/Gay/Bi: bi
Single? nope
If not, do you want to be? hell no
Birthdate: 4/20/7?
Your age: 30ish
Age you act: depends on mood LOL
Age you wish you were: 0
Your height: 5'5
Eye color: green
Happy with it? yea
Hair color: dark brown
Happy with it? yes
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: i'm neather i'm both
Your living arrangement: me myself and i and 5 pets lol
Your family: who cares?
Have any pets? See above
Whats your job? noydb
Piercings? no
Tattoos? yep
Obsessions? no
Addictions? caffine
Do you speak another language? yes
Have a favorite quote? you bet
Do you have a webpage? yep

Deep Thoughts About Life

Do you live in the moment? most of the time yes
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? erm does agoraphobic mean anything to you ?
Do you have any secrets? sure i have a few but i dont hide them from everyone
Do you hate yourself? sometimes
Do you like your handwriting? sometimes
Do you have any bad habits? a few but not many
What is the compliment you get from most people? That I'm really sweet and always good at making them laugh :)
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? Love Struck....More Of a Thriller or Mystery Story lol
What's your biggest fear? To Be Traped & Unable To Do Things
Do people say you resemble a celebrity? Sometimes... they say i'm a cross between jennifer beals and laura branagan
Can you sing? yep
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? hell no
Are you a loner? to a point
What is your number 1 priority in life? to just be happy & to take risks when its necesary
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? i dunno
Are you a daredevil? yea
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? the fact that i'm a constant worrier drives me nuts sometimes lol
Are you passive agressive? erm no
Do you have a journal? yes
What is your greatest strength and weakness? s... to see obsticals as a challange and can get through most of them....w/ at times i just have no patiantce...
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? be more confidant
Do you think you are emotionally strong? more than i give myself credit for yes...
Is there anything you regret doing or not doing in life? if i had any i'd say it was reuniting with my family....( long story)
Do you think life has been good so far? its had its ups and downs but its been rewarding and challanging so yea so far so ....
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? that when i really put my heart and mind to do something i can achive anything i want.....its just a matter of beliveing it...
What do you like the most about your body? my eyes.... very mysterious...
Do you think you are good looking? eh i'm not egotistic by any means but i'm pretty darn cute...
Are you confident? most of the time yes
What is the fictional character you are most like? a charicter in d. steels kaladascope... the oldist sister...
Are you perceived wrongly? sometime

Do You...

Smoke? no
Do drugs? catnip?
Read the newspaper? sometimes
Pray? yep
Go to church? no
Talk to strangers who IM you? sometimes
Sleep with stuffed animals? do real animals count?
Take walks in the rain? every chance i get
Talk to people even though you hate them? not ushally
Drive? yea
Like to drive fast? no

Would or Have You Ever?

Liked your voice? no
Hurt yourself? no
Been out of the country? oh yea
Eaten something that made other people sick? yep oh my friend jane could tell ya storys on that one lmao
Been in love? erm i think ? LOL
Done drugs? yes wont go there again...
Gone skinny dipping? Hell Ya....
Had a medical emergency? yep
Had surgery? yep
Ran away from home? yep
Played strip poker? yep
Gotten beaten up? yea
Beaten someone up? no
Been picked on? many times
Been on stage? yep
Slept outdoors? yep
Thought about suicide? no
Pulled an all nighter? more than i'd like to think yes
Gone one day without food? yep
Talked on the phone all night? god yes...
Slept together with the opposite sex without having sex? yep
Slept all day? yes
Made out with a stranger?
Had sex with a stranger?
Thought you're going crazy? I thought i was?
Kissed the same sex? yes
Done anything sexual with the same sex? u bet
Been betrayed? felt betrayed.....
Had a dream that came true? none yet
Broken the law? no
Met a famous person? yes
Have you ever killed an animal by accident? no
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? no
Stolen anything? no
Been on radio/tv? yes
Been in a mosh-pit? yes
Had a nervous breakdown? 2 many times
Bungee jumped? not yet
Had a dream that kept coming back? yea

Beliefs

Belive in life on other planets? i dunno
Miracles? all the time
Astrology? to a point
Magic? to a certian degree
God? god?gods?goddesss? all the same to me
Satan? no
Santa? no
Ghosts? sure
Luck? to a point
Love at first sight? don't know
Yin and yang? lol
Witches? bewitched? lol
Easter bunny? hell no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever? have no clue
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow? the day a cow flys over a roof i will
Do you wish on stars? sometimes :)

Deep Theological Questions

Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? no
Do you think God has a gender? no
Do you believe in organized religion? no
Where do you think we go when we die? to wharever are spirit wishes to go...

Friends

Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? many
Who is your best friend? Sharon & Melissa& Julia
Who's the one person that knows most about you? Sharon,Melissa & Julia
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? that you cant tell youself you cant do it if you havnt tryed it already...
Your favourite inside joke? I have many... btw sharon hows quackers? LOL
Thing you're picked on most about? i have a enourmous heart when it comes to children and animals..( I have 5 pets)
Who's your longest known friend? Jeanie
Newest? Heather & Jewel
Shyest? Dunno Most Of My Friends R Not Shy! lmao
Funniest? hmmm Sharon & Mike 4 Sure...
Sweetest? Adna and Jewel
Closest? Mike
Weirdest? Mike
Smartest? Mike
Ditziest? that again would be Mike LOL
Friends you miss being close to the most? Ginny & Julia G.
Last person you talked to online? Jewel
Who do you talk to most online? Jewel, Heather & Mike
Who are you on the phone with most? Mike....
Who do you trust most? Definatly Mike....
Who listens to your problems? Mike, Jewel,& Adna
Who do you fight most with? My family
Whos the nicest? They All R :)
Whos the most outgoing? Have No Clue
Whos the best singer? I have No Clue Adna Hit A High Note... yep definatly not her lmao
Whos on your shit-list? will remain nameless
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? yep
Whos your second family? mike & his family definatly
Do you always feel understood? not always but most of the time
Who's the loudest friend? that depends whos singing? LOL
Do you trust others easily? no
Whos house were you last at? mikes
Name one person whos arms you feel safe in: I dunno
Do your friends know you? for the most part yes
Friend that lives farthest away: Shane ( U.K)

Love and All That

Do you consider love a mistake? No
What do you find romantic? lots of things... its how u set it up :) But walking in the rain is to me...
Turn-on? lots of things...
Turn-off? a rude argont attitude....
First kiss? yea your point?
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel? I'd be honist and tell them i didnt feel the same way...
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them? yes
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out? not really i dont care what everyones ideas of acceptable is... if i want something i go after it unless of course they come get me first...
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? looks dont matter to me its all in the mind and heart for me the body gets old and wrinkly anyway its not like we will look the way we were in are teens when were 60 hello? LOL
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? I don't care enough to know if they do they'd tell me but why worry over it...
What is best about the opposite sex? there funny
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? there babys... "honey go get me a beer." DO I Look Like Your damm Mother? Sorry I'm Busy that Day...
What's the last present someone gave you? S Knit Sweater and Cds...I'm still waiting on the brownies.. lmao
Are you in love? maybe
Do you consider your significant other hot? Shes Crazy.... But Shes Beautiful In Her Own Special way :)

Who Was the Last Person...

That haunted you? My mother
You wanted to kill? i have no clue
That you laughed at? i laugh at everyone
That laughed at you? my dad
That turned you on? Adna
You went shopping with? Mike
That broke your heart? Dave
To disappoint you? Kreg
To ask you out? Whats That? LOL
To make you cry? My Family
To brighten up your day? Adna
That you thought about? Adna
You saw a movie with? Robyn
You talked to on the phone? Mike
You talked to through IM? Heather
You saw? My Dad
You lost? My Grandfather

Right This Moment...

Are you going out? dumb ? next!
Will it be with your significant other? I'd hope so
What are you wearing right now? a red shirt and black cargo pants
Body part you're touching right now: my leg
What are you worried about right now? getting my depresson under controle
What book are you reading? none
What's on your mousepad? 2 tigers
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: calm, creative, thinking, bord of this test... lol oh yea silly
Are you bored? of this test or in general?
Are you tired? a little
Are you talking to anyone online? not at the moment
Are you talking to anyone on the phone? no
Are you lonely or content? neather
Are you listening to music? always

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Today, I am thankful to be alive. Thankful that I have five silly animals That love me unconditionally... Today I am thankful That I am not paralyzed Though I am paralyzed emotionally still in some ways I am grateful it is no longer a physical issue... Today I am thankful That I have learned once again To remain strong when people Around me try to hurt me with hate Jealousy and anger I no longer let them Paralyze me with fear Or paralyze me with sadness Instead I mute them out with my ears And just walk on by Though in there eyes I am being selfish But in my heart I am being strong By keeping positive thoughts in mind Today I am thankful That the goddess has sent me here on this land Not only to learn new things And remember things from my past But to teach others the ways of the old And to have them remember the one important thing That the only person we need to be true to is ourselves Friends come and go Family eventually passes on Lovers don't always remain faithful And don't always stay with us forever As temptation and lust usually always Take them away If the trust itself hasn't been already broken Today I am thankful That my life has changed I have met new people Learned new things Become more spiritual And have achieved some Impossible dreams Today I will set new goals for myself And once again Try to achieve the impossible So today I am thankful To just be living And to simply be me By~ Bi_Chics_Rock_69

Compassion Compassion is the keen awareness of the interdependence of all things. --Thomas Merton Compassion is the ultimate and most meaningful embodiment of emotional maturity. It is through compassion that a person achieves the highest peak and deepest reach in his or her search for self-fulfillment. --Arthur Jersild Compassion is not sentiment but is making justice and doing works of mercy. Compassion is not a moral commandment but a flow and overflow of the fullest human and divine energies. --Matthew Fox The whole purpose of religion is to facilitate love and compassion, patience, tolerance, humility, forgiveness. --H.H. the Dalai Lama While we all enjoy and employ the Law of Atrraction philosophy, my deep hope is that we all remember to be compassionate to those who are suffering. I love this one by Bertrand Russell: Three passions have governed my life: The longings for love, the search for knowledge, And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind]. Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness. In the union of love I have seen In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined. With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of [people]. I have wished to know why the stars shine. Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens, But always pity brought me back to earth; Cries of pain reverberated in my heart Of children in famine, of victims tortured And of old people left helpless. I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot, And I too suffer. This has been my life; I found it worth living. adapted by Bertrand Russell

quote:Indeed we must *go with the flow* of Life, but not life as we are conditioned to perceive it. Life has an agenda all of its own, and we ARE life so we should indeed Realize that we are as much that agenda as the bird or the tree or the Legless Frog. But we are conditioned to project our likes and dislikes into/onto that life, that agenda, re-defining that Natural agenda as our own. Our own, the Grand Trickster's, agenda is not the agenda of the manifested realm. That is why we are always in conflict with both nature and each other. We conditioned programmed automatons set up our own agendas and are conditioned to *believe* it is everything else's, so we are always at odds with everyone and everything. Ah, but we must face the storms face to face toe to toe and battle it out. We can not glean the Rainbow unless we can weather the storm. We can not start Awakening unless we can let go of the Causes of our Suffering. The storms are none other than our conditioned ideas and images and meaning clouding our Way. What we must Observe, is ourselves. We must Observe our thinking and our behavior, our actions and our reactions and responses. We must Observe every detail of ourselves so that we may see the defiling Veils to our Awakening AND wrench those Veils out by their roots. It may sound a bit violent in the destruction of the Causes of our Suffering, but not as violent as the Causes that keep us Suffering. For those Causes, those conditioned perceptions, are the basis of war and conflict and strife and Suffering and the devastation of the planet, told and untold as well and seen and unseen. It does take time, and it does take NOT following the thoughts as they arise. When we sit in Silence and block out that which is outside us, dwelling Within, many thoughts will arise. Take a non-committed stance on the thoughts and simply watch them come and go. That is, as they arise do not think about them, recognize that they have arisen and continue concentration on the Silence. See that they are there, but then turn away from them, contribute no thought or energy to them. It is sometimes helpful to concentrate on an image to focus concentration so that arising thoughts are of no consequence. They will never get tired of pestering you, but you will Realize much Peace by being stronger than they are. And eventually they will not arise at all (perhaps out of shame for not distracting you). ^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^ 0====[::::::::::> Sword of Truth <::::::::::]====0

Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Some men dont want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead they get the rotten apples from the ground that arent as good cause its easier. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them when in reality THEY ARE AMAZING!!!! They just have to wait for the right man to come along. The one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.... ~I know which Woman I am....Do you know which Man you are???

Today Dear Lord I am going to walk onto the war zone Up to the top of these hills whare the battle is And surrender.... My life in short Has been like a roller coaster... Has many hills Twists & Turns.... Gone in many circles... But today I am Surrendering... I'm putting down my sword Throwing down my shield My heart has been shattered Like glass thrown and shatterd Into millions of pieces I do not know how long I can go on With this battle of mine... I'm in need of some real honisty A Loyal Friend Someone I can give my heart to And not watch it be broken again.... So I'm surrendering my heart to you Find me someone I can trust Love Surrender my heart too Someone who will protect me Love me for who I am And be careful of this heart of mine.... But until that day I need you to take care of this heart of mine So I can be once again The warrior I am meant to be.....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra.. A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... One friend who Always makes her Laugh.... And one Who lets her cry... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... A good piece of furniture not previously owned by Anyone else in her family... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE Eight matching plates, Wine glasses with stems, And a recipe for a meal that will Make her guests feel honored. A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... A feeling of control over Her destiny... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... How to fall in love Without losing herself... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... When to break the rules And when not to... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... How to quit a Job Break up with a lover and confront a friend without ruining the friendship EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... When to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY. EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... That she can't change The length of her calves, The width of her hips, or The nature of her parents... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... That her childhood May not have been Perfect..but; Its over... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... What she would and Wouldn't Do for love or more... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... How to live alone... even if She doesn't like it... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... Whom she can trust, Whom she can't, And why she shouldn't Take it personally... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... Where to go... Be it to her best friend's kitchen table.. Or a charming inn in the woods... When her soul needs soothing... ! EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... What she can and can't accomplish In a day... A month.. And a year...

OPEN YOUR HEART TO CONNECT YOUR MIND TO YOUR FEELINGS TO SHOW YOUR INNER WORLD...WITHOUT FEARS, BUT WITH FAITH ...THAT THE PEOPLE WHO GET THE PRIVILEGE TO SHARE THAT INTIMATE WORLD...CAN UNDERSTAND HOW SIMPLE IS TO GIVE THE BEST OF YOU TO OTHERS... LEAVING THE PAIN BEHIND IN THE PAST, BECAUSE WE DON'T BELONG TO OUR PAST, WE BELONG TO OUR DREAMS, TO OUR PRESENT AND TO OURSELVES....TO BELONG IS A DECISION A SELFLESSNESS AND ONLY MAKE SENSE WHEN WE CAN UNDERSTAND THAT THE ONLY REAL TIME THAT WORTH ANY EFFORT ANY COMMITMENT IS THE PRESENT...AND THE PRESENT IS ALL WHAT YOU HAVE HERE, YOU MUST GIVE ALL WHAT YOU HAVE TO GIVE....TODAY. WHEN YOU FORGET THE "FUTURE OBSESSION" TO DECIDE TO ENJOY YOUR PRESENT... YOU WILL SOW CONSCIOUSLY TODAY AND DEFINITELY YOU WILL HAVE A BETTER HARVEST IN THAT FUTURE THAT SINCE THIS MOMENT YOU WILL FREE. YOU WILL BE SURPRISE WHEN YOU DISCOVER THAT YOU ENJOY THE JOURNEY OF YOUR LIFE AND DAY AFTER DAY YOU WILL START TO CONNECT THE PIECES OF A LIFE THAT YOU ARE ENJOYING... A LIFE THAT YOU FINALLY STARTED TO LIVE CONSCIOUSLY. ~SELENA~

Chained I am walking on this so called road of life with chains on my hands chains on my feet the gaurds hold me neer them as they walk me to the stone wall i hear people scream people shout out at me but i am now being chained to this huge stone wall they tie me up to the wall by my hands chain me to the wall by my feet and leave me there by the stone wall to burn in the fire and heat... as the fire begins i begin to pray god please bring in some rain and put this fire out set me free of these chains and let me be free i sit there and cry these tears as the people walk away just as i start to fade i felt the rain.... the rain was pouring down on me putting out the fire healing my pain healing my wounds and this ake in my heart the chains break and i fall to the ground as i regain my strength to remove the chains and walk away... my family may not want me but that doesnt mean i have to live in sadness and give up hope.... the rain has put out the fire broken my chains and i am walking again free from the pain my family has caused in time the wounds will heal and i will know what real love is one day....

I've been beetin shatered torn ripped broken used abused... Its time to be strong And simply moving on..... Im saying goodbye and starting my life over I've shed and cryed enough tears to refill the rivers and streams been chaind to the rocks in the rivers waiting tell i regain my strength to break free.. Only to be sitting there for what seemed like forever.... Well the sailer has come he jumped in and broke the chains carryed me to the shore and gave me life again... but when i wouldn't give my heart he set me free. now its time to find the real me once again...