ok can i just say that having an ex to deal with is hard enough let alone when you have a kid in the mix. why is it that things just don't go smoothly. i don't ask for much i really don't. i am not a bitch unless of course i am mad but who isn't. i just want help with my son from his father. it always seems that i keep giving all of these chances and being nice and whatever and it ends up biting me in the ass everytime. i try really hard to get along but for whatever reason its not working. if i am going to do it alone i really wish he would just completely stop being around. i don't want him to be if its not consistent. so i tell him today that if he can't sacrific his time of what he wants to do to help out with a child that he helped create then to forget he even has one at all. i know that sounds mean but its like he always has an excuse of why he can't have his son. whether it be one thing or another still excuses. i sacrific alot of things for my son but thats what you are supposed to do right? i guess things are just different nowadays as to the father doesn't have to do anything for his children anymore. i mean isn't your child supposed to be number one? i thought thats how it was but to some i guess i am wrong. i don't want to have to do drastic things like court and such but what choice do i have honestly? i don't get help any other way i suppose maybe papers would get it done. its to better my son by getting help that i am obviously not recieving from him. its either he seriously starts helping or its alot of time in court processes. or i kind of wish he would take the easy way out and just give up his rights. i think that would be better for us all. at least that way i would not have to worry about anything from him or hoping he does anything for my son.
