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What are you waiting for?
I am STRESSED. I have been off work for 5 weeks now because of my health. It is not anything major. I do not have cancer, nor do I have heart diasease. I do have high blood pressure and diabeties.
The federal DOT is starting to crack down on health issues with truck drivers so the doctor is being extra careful.
But I am not making any money, my doctor has had my paperwork for my short term disability for 3 days...and I found out he is not going to be in the office next week.
It's getting to me, I can tell, my friends can tell. They are asking if I have a headache, or why I am not smiling or joking around like usual. It's affecting my blood pressure adversely.
I want to punch something. I need to get laid, lol. I need a good cry. I am getting to the point that I don't give a fuck.
But. I hope you're having a good day.
When you bear your soul to someone, what do you expect?
Will they see what you want to show them?
Probably not. They will see what they want to see and not the
whole.
They will, depending on how they feel, about you or life in general,
look for the parts. They will find the dark parts and tell you how
foul you are. They will find the red of you angers, or the greens of
your envies.
But your soul in not a rainbow, white light split into colors. It is
whole, the way you are, not the parts of you. It is more than
the sum of the parts.
When you find someone that will look at the soul and tell you
truth of the total of what they see.
Then. You have found a friend.
There's not as much blood as I thought there would be.
Still, it is bright red. Does she care? Will she even know?
Someone will have to clean this up, but, it's not too bad.
Still, there should be more.
It's hard to think straight, with all this redness on the floor
there's some on the door. Will she even know.
It was just a small sting, no pain, it was quick. Then the redness came. How could she know, if I don't tell her it's here?
I think I miss her even more now. Does she even care?
I need to get up. Everything has slowed down. I must clean this up.
I'll just wrap a bandage aroung the wrists. She'll never know.
And by the time she finds out, they'll be healed.
Alone, and lonely
800 miles away
She waits.
Alone, and lonely
800 miles away
It's me she waits for.
Together lonely
800 miles away
Together we wait no more
To be,
Alone and lonely.
