"Hate me today...Hate me tomorrow...hate me for all the things I didn't do for you"...why do I obsess...why can't I get out of my head...just when she begins to fade away...she's back causeing me to remember all the times, and think of what might have been...it's a part of the suffering of my life...maybe she'll see this...maybe not...I'm content when I know we can communicate, because I have not been happy in along time, so long I believe prior happiness was just an illusion of youth...when I can't talk to her...all I do is continue with my "mood" as my mom called it...I really do miss her...any way if she does get this, she'll be mad...I'm sorry this is the way I feel...M1K3Y_XIII
