On yesterday morning, I was awoken by the Mister yelling again about thes same shzt. The same shzt I have been complaining about for over 5 years, so one a month this man choose a day and fuck my day up. He came home yelling getting me upset, I couldn't go to work, my daughters couldn't go schoo. So for 3 or 4 hours, I made my voice heard.
I grew up in a household where my father beat my mother, the children, foster kids, I said I would NEVER yell at man, cause when my mom is it she got beat. I never wanted to stand up for myself cause of that fear. However,yesterday, all bets was off.
I went at it, I call this man a Bitch. A Bitch, never had a done that to any man, but the Mister was asking for it. I said, how are u going to throw out a woman with no money and two girl out on the street because u want u house clean. I clean this house, but these SOB that stay here think I'm their maid. I told him that enough is enough, 9 1/2 years is long enough to put up with the SSDD. I'm FED UP FED UP FED UP. I want out, I don't want to be here anymore. Now I'm telling this man all this and he still can't hear. This man can't see the forest for the trees. Whats wrong with him.
I called him a low down traforing son of Bitch, but still he can't hear. I yelling and got real getto on him, something I have alway wanted to do. Evenully I had to go outside where he almost treaten me, I finish his sentence and "Hit Me", nigga u hit me, I'm going to jail, I will snap. So he ask me to join him in the car so we could talk without the girls hearing me, the way I was yelling u could hear me in space. I had to get things off my chest thats been there for 5 months. I told him I was not happy, hes respones, it not his fault. WHAT?! BITCH IT IS UR FAULT. My daughter don't respect me becasue of the way u treat me. When ur young child tell u to Man-Up, it make u think.
So, while we sat in the car talking and I finally express myself, He got quite. He was finally thinking, than he flip the scripe. Saying shzt like, "Don't let the kids break us up." WHAT?!. This man is fucking with me so back and I'm FED UP. My answer was this, "My children aren't breaking us up, we are. I want out. I want to leave." Those was my final words, I got out the car, when in the house, and redid everything I redone. Just so I can bring my pressure down.
I reclean his house again, but it not really clean, this man has thing he need to get rid of but don't, shit that don't work, beds that he don't need, but when I keep telling him to get rid of it, he can't seem to do it. I have satfy all my clothes so he and my children can have room for their stuff. Do u know how hard it is to find a pair of parties to wear, and bar to match, or just a damn bar. I hate this house, but he won't let me leave.
I know what u might be thinking, trust me I heard it all, but when u don't have the money, or tranforation, it hard. The little money that I do get I pay his bills. Yes, I know my children live here, I live so I don't mind paying. But damn, U want me out so damn bad, but yet every pennie I try to make, I have to spend it on you or the children. I can't live on 395 a month when all my bill equal up to 890. I know some are going to ask about public house. Try that as well, but because of my stupid husband, I have to send off my B/C to prove I'm Me.OMG I really need a break right now. Right now I don't have any extra funds.
I want to leave. I'm going to leave. I will leave the same way I left the last time. Also, I told this man that I have a puzzy, I don't need u any more. Why won't u let this end? What is wrong with him. I don't think my sex is that good. I seen video that put me to shame. I didn't know much about sex until I got with him. I was new to alot of things he has done to me over the years. Things that still make me blush today. But still, come on now, why do he want me here?
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