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I'm southern girl to the core and I learned that the hard way. I've lived in Florida (1 year), North Carolina (1 month), Chicago (1 week)and I moved back to my home state (South Carolina) from Pennsylvania (5 months) in July. I do believe I've cured the traveling itch I had. The old saying "there is no place like home" speaks volumes for me. Update: January 23, 2007.I know that turning 25 probably doesn't mean a lot to some people but to me it's a huge deal. It's hard to believe I'm going to be a quarter of a century old this year. What do I have to show for the past 25 years of my life? At first glance most would say nothing. I think I'm doing okay. I have a great job and I'm taking care of myself. I'm paying for my own car. Almost everything I own I can say I bought it with my own money. So what I don't have a significant other or children. Of course I want that sos but I have time for that. As for children, I don't want any of my own and I've very content with the ones that surround me. So yeah my life seems pretty good.. wrong. There was something missing... a big empty space.. I knew what it was but I was running from it. Not right now I always said... I have plenty of time.. The Sunday before last I sat in church as usual half way listening to the preacher and the other half thinking about conversations I had that week and conversations I needed to have that following week and the preacher was about to close and asked that everyone come around the alter and just spend some time seeking the Lord. Before I knew it I was knealing down at the alter and something broke in me. It was time.. I had be running for far to long. Tears were falling, my bangs were drenched in snot (don't you just love that.. heh) and the conviction was so heavy on my heart that my body was convulsing. How did I let it get this far? I know better. I was raised in church. I KNOW BETTER! That's were a lot of people get it wrong.. it doesn't matter how you were brought up or even if you go to church every Sunday and you play the part. You can't fool God and that's what I was trying to do. Fortuantely for me and you our God is soo forgiving and loving and the moment I spoke His name I felt such a warm sensation through my body. My heart was no longer heavy. There is nothing greater in this world than feeling the presence of God. I know I'm not perfect. I know that I'll never be and I know that I'll make tons of mistakes along the way but I know that Daddy will be with me each step of the way and as I grow in Him my life will be worth living and I have a purpose and those mistakes won't matter. They're just a part of growing. I'm not writing this to try to preach to anyone. I'm writing this because I want you to know who I am - a child of God.
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