BabyGirl's blog: "About Me"

A life I once lived, no longer able to go back... A dream I once had that no longer exsists it had became a reality... A wish of death that will not seem to come true, random thoughts in my mind that rarely make sense... Life at its darkest depths of hell, Stupidity at its finest, though I know your true intentions I always come back for more, I do not love you though I feel as if I could, The Life I lead now is no different than the one once lived...

Hey Everone just wanted to tell everyone merry Christmas and Happy New Years... Hope it is Safe and Fun...

Well I had one of them nights where your not sure what exactly to do... lol... I was offered money in return for sex but the problem with that is the guy doesn't speak the same language just a little english and me knowing a little spanish... Its wierd lol I can understand spanish when I hear it but can't talk it at all... My supervisor lost his mind expects me to do two different jobs at the same time in different sides of the plant... Damn it sucks... lol... I found this really cool translator... The website is http://babelfish.altavista.com/tr

Well I have nothing else to do except write right now.... Well If ya don't know by now I am 18 and I work at perdue... I am single and am not really sure if I want a boyfriend right now... I ran into my ex yesterday at my friends house that was interesting... I basically work and sleep all the time... On the weekends I go out and just drink and hang out with my friends... I love music it is one of the best things on earth... I love tattoos... I plan on eventually being covered in them.... I don't take life to serious just the parts that need to be... I am pretty easy going and love meeting new people... I want to travel and see the world... I think that'd be awesome... I want to see all the things I can because we all know we won't get out of this world alive... I realize that life is a game and there are no rules you just have to see who is the best... People say nice guys always finish last and they do...

Broken Tears Broken tears, though I show no fears, it all brings me unimaginable pain, although I cannot explain, all this agony and distress, it has put me to a test, of finding myself, all over again I lost myself, in a far away place, and these thoughts seem not to cease, but bring me closer to sanity, all I blame for this is you, A living hell for those who do not know, questions I have never been asked, run rapidly through my blood, thoughts unspoken, dying to escape, though I show no fear, for these broken tears... ~Jessie Marie Goodwin ~December 20, 2005

1. Cigarettes: Marlboro Reds 2. Sex: whatever 3. Relationships: yeah 4. Your Last Ex: we hate each other 5. Power rangers: the pink one 6. Crack: sucks 8. Food: depends on what it is 9. The President: sucks 10. War: doesn't all add up 11. Cars: trucks 12. Gas Prices: expensive 13. Halloween: rocks 14. Bon Jovi: hate them 15. Religion: have fun with that 16. Myspace: my perspective on life 17. Worst fear: Being alone 18. Marriage: not no time soon 19. Paris Hilton: can you say whore 20. Brunettes: been one 21. Redhead: been there 22: Politics: don't like them 23: Pass the time: party 24. One night stands: not my deal 25. My Cell phone: stays with me 26: Pet Peeves: a bunch of peeps near me 27: Pixie Stix: good 28: Vanilla Ice cream: sucks 29: Porta Potties: won't use 30: Highschool: skipped most times 31. Pajamas: shirt and underwear 32. Wood: many types 33. Wet Socks: hate them 34. Alcohol: love it 35. The word Hate: use it a lot 36. Your best friend: not sure 37. Money: goes to fast 38. Heartache: experiencing it 39. Love: depends on what kind 40. Time: try not to wish it away 41. Divorce: just an excuse most times

I'm sorry if my boobs aren't big enough to "satisfy" your needs. I'm sorry if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs. I'm sorry if I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl". I'm sorry if I'm not tan enough for you I'm sorry if I'm not a playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you. I'm sorry If i don't have a dream body that turns you on. I'm sorry if im not tall enough. I'm sorry if my hair is not long enough. But most of all... I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are.

Well I am 18 and From North Carolina.... It sucks here most of the time... I am single been broken up with my x for 2 months now the longest i have been single in 4 years... I am enjoying it though... I love my life... My job is easy its just where it is at... I work at perdue in condemned, I weigh the buckets and see how much good meat is in them... then i dump it down a shoot and it is sent off to make dog or cat food... yummy huh... My life has always been hell and yet i haved turned out perfectly fine... i realize what the world is about and how is it is to be fucked over by people. Most people my age have to get it done to them over and over just to realize it... I am mature for my age but believe that seriousness is only needed in a serious situtation... I can be your best friend or your worst enemy... i can be anything you want me to be on the outside but you can't get the inside... I don't care what people think about me if the love me good if they don't they can fuck off... well much loves... jessie