Well, not that anyone cares...but i messed up big time..i have managed to almost cost myself the best friendship i have ever had...yeah we had our ups and downs and maybe this is one of those down times...but anyways...my friend was talking to this guy on here...and he stopped talking to her...so being a friend i contacted him to see what was up and try to get them talking again...well it turned out that he and i started talking on a regular basis...so he and i set up a meeting with his kids and my kids at the park...and i invited my best friend to come by and hang with us after she got off of work...well it turned out that she couldnt make it because of work and it was dark so we left...well our first meeting we hit it off...now the whole time my best friend has feelings for this guy...and in the back of my mine i knew this...yet i still continued to see him and talk to him...(what a good friend i am right? yeah right! i know im not) so he tells me not to tell her anything but i have already told her everything...cause she is my best friend...well he comes over to my house tonight and we fool around for a little bit and one thing leads to another...well something in his eyes told me to tell him to go home but i didnt...and i think my friend thinks that im just using him and disguarding him and im not there just something up with this relationship and im not quite sure what it is...anyways...now my best friend is mad at me because i did all this to her ( the going out with him knowing that she liked him, the having second thoughts about him, everything)...so i havent been a true friend to her and i need help with my problem...my first step toward getting our friendship back is to tell her im sorry and i know that is not nearly enough even to start out with but i have to say it...so if you are reading this ( and you know who you are) then i tell you im sorry and i will do whatever it takes to get us back as friends the way we use to be...I love you girl and i truely am sorry...
