i went to a meeting for the first time in a long time yes aa ... ive been going ever since i can remeber although we can say im less then sober this one was actually pretty cool it was at an old hangout in orange at the circle ..at the ugly mug wow what a place for an aa meeting next to 2 of the towns most well know bars fucking o'haras? and pauls ..really all i have tosay is that i havent changed my mind either way about leaving or staying.. i truly dont know what im going to do .. my hope is to find a btter place to live and a better job but if that doesnt happen then my hope is to pack up a minimal things and go cross country for a little while see where it takes me ..yes i know run like a pansy ..its what feels good for right now
