As these days pass me by, I try and ignore the loves and pains of being a man. Only wanting what is real, not what is presumed to be real. How can one tell if the love in your life is not the one causing your pain? How can one tell if the pain you feel is really pain, and not some horrible dream from which you cannot wake? Being able to distinguish reality from dreams is something every person should be able to do,but if your sanity is compromised, how can one tell the difference?Awake or asleep and trapped inside your mind, continually searching for the answers of life. A never ending journey for love, faith and truth. When I look into the eyes of my children, I regain some hope and faith, that was lost from living a life of uncertainty. Uncertain of my place in this world, uncertain of my abilities as a human being, and uncertain of everything I thought to be REAL. I continue this life only to understand what life is. So as I travel this journey, I must keep my faith, in our GOD, in my love, and in life itself.