now the begining to another long night, its currently 1:17 am. ide love to pretend id sleep, have someone to talk to, lay with, kiss, hold, but the truth is that im going to sit here,watch some law and order, smoke WAY to many ciggarrettes, and then finally conk out to do it all over again. the life of an average twenty year old male amazes me. the constant activity of teens and adolescent years brings the false identity of a fullfilling life. then you get the full time job, still the activity lays however a little more seldom now. then your pressured by your peers, schooling system, parents ( of course) as well as society around u to go to school for another 2 to 10 years. like the first 12 werent enough. after the futile attempt at something u didnt really agree with u decide that the working man is the one u admire and strive for. u buy all this useless materialistic lifestyl to fill the ongoing void of bordem and loneliness. as the bills pile up and the events come more few and far between, the idea of school becomes more and mroe apealing. why not relive the "good years", so u persue ur dream. the thing that u didnt notice is that while u sat back at let life stop to attemp to fill a void that could never be met. like the monotnous banging of a starving infant screaming for its mothers tite, the world continued without u, u were yet again left behind, down and out, as the sudden realization of the current situation settles in the semi charmed brain of urs, u accept ur fate and continue your simplistic yet quazi enjoyable, meaningless, life. welcome to the 21st century. Cheers.
